So what happens when you don't have it? You stall out - or at least I have.
Thankfully I haven't gained, but I am not losing either. Hannah will be 9 months old on Monday and that means I have barely three months to attain my initial goal. I wanted to be back to pre-baby weight by her 1st birthday. I will still have plenty of losing to do after that, but I desperately want to get rid of those 20lbs I gained while I was pregnant and in the first months after she was born.
So even though I have a goal in mind, I am struggling with finding the motivation to succeed! I began pondering what is holding me back the other day and I think I have at least a partial answer.
If I don't truly commit, I can't truly fail. The truth is I have been over weight for most of my life. I think when you have been previously fit, you have a visual goal in mind of what you are zstriving to achieve. You remember what it felt like to be fit, what it looked like to be fit, and possibly what it took to maintain.
Although I was not "fat" in high school, I was definitely not fit, and that lifestyle continued into college and beyond. I have never been "average" sized, have always struggled to find clothes that fit comfortably, and cannot remember ever loving the way I looked (with the exception of my wedding day!).
Thus, I believe my problem is a visual one. I cannot visualize the end result and thus I am not inspired to work towards it! So the next issue is I'm not sure what to do with this knowledge. I don't know how to reframe my thinking, but maybe knowing my hang up will help.
Here's to finding new motivation...
