My friend Carrie said it best in her blog - I have notoriously battled an "all or nothing" mentality. It seems like I start out focused and determined, and the minute I misstep I throw it all out the window. If I skip logging a meal, I skip the rest of the day. If I miss one work out, I skip a weeks worth of work outs. Truthfully I know I am only hurting myself, but I struggle with remaining focused.
During Lent I tried to remain dedicated to a Lenten devotion of skipping out on two of my biggest weaknesses: chocolate and soda. The reason I chose these two things to give up was because they have often been the cause of me giving up on myself and my focus for weight loss. This year, however, it COMPLETELY back fired! I did a decent job refraining from my two biggest temptations, but instead I over-indulged on other junk and ended up gaining 2lbs! It was so frustrating and it made it hard to reamin focused on my continued weight loss.
Then I went on vacation to Texas for 9 days! It was amazing to see my family and I had a FABULOUS time, but I did not eat healthy while I was gone. One caveat is that I at least went to the gym several days with my mom and sister. Truthfully, what that reinforced for me was my need to find a work out buddy. It is not possible for Greg and I to hit the gym at the same time, so now Im stuck wondering how else to develop that partnership. This is something I will have to ponder.
Not I am back home, and although I am still holding on to that extra 2lbs, I am working on reframing my though process on this whole journey. This is not going to be an over night fix. I did not gain weight in a matter of weeks, and I am certainly not going to lose it in a matter of weeks.
Working out felt great while I was on vacation so Im hoping that I can carry that motivation back with me here in Nebraska. One day at a time, right?
